27 April 2010

Baby Girl

My darling daughter, Alex, seems to be going through some separation anxiety-from her mama. When I lay her down for her nap, she cries and screams. While I would normally let her cry it out, the problem now coming into play is her standing and sitting. If she would lay and cry, she'd fall asleep.

Today, I laid her down this morning and she cried. I gave her the nuk. Then I sat by the side of the crib and eventually crawled out on my hands and knees. I can't do this every day. I also can't let her see me walk out.

This afternoon, she was having none of it. She cried and cried. I snuck out again. She got very quiet so I though she was asleep. The door was open as I can't close it when I sneak out. I went about my work. I walked past about 20 minutes later only to see Alex sitting, clutching the bars of her crib, nuk in and looking like a prisoner who had been abandoned. One look at me and she started to wail. Needless to say, there was no nap, and we had an exhausted Alex this evening (she also NEVER sleeps in the van!).

So, I am at a total loss...suggestions???

23 April 2010


Michael was drawing pictures yesterday. He drew 4 faces-2 were smiling and 2 were frowning. I pointed to the smiling ones and asked who they were. Michael responded, "Peter and Drew." Pointing to the frownies, I asked about those. His response, "you and Daddy." Guess we need to work on some cheerfulness around here!

22 April 2010

My Week

This has been a busy week for appointments for us. Drew had his follow-up with the asthma doctor on Tuesday. I think when I left the appointment last time, I was surprised a bit, but we got used to the additional inhalers and life went on. Over the weekend, Drew started his coughing fits again (usually a sign he is wheezing). I was thankful that we had this appointment set up. I was fairly certain that the trees blooming had something to do with it.

What I was not prepared for was the new action plan. Drew now has a peak flow meter. We have to test him twice a day to see how he is breathing and journal it. If he can't get it above his minimum (120), then the action plan goes into effect. If he is 75 or below, we have to go to the ER. Wednesday morning, his peak was 110. I should have started on the action plan, but I thought it was for below 100. I sent him to school.

Thankfully, he made it through the day, but when I got him home, it was low. So we started the rounds of extra inhalers. He rebounded quickly and was at a comfortable 220 this morning. That being said, I realized that I misread the instructions on the action plan and didn't give him enough of his albuterol yesterday. It is OK. I will get used to it. I am just feeling a tad overwhelmed by it all.

On the flip side, I had a lovely conversation with my godson yesterday who is a Type 1 Diabetic. He is 13 and I was telling him about all of this and likening it to how his Mom must have felt when he was first diagnosed with high blood sugars and making sure he had enough but not too much insulin. He responded that Drew would get the hang of this and be able to do it himself one day. It actually was a very reassuring thought. Right now, Drew is not always aware of when he is having breathing issues. I am thankful for the flow meter, but I am also thankful for my godson's reminder that Drew will learn to listen to his body.

I also had my appointment with the endocrinologist. It appears that my thyroid issue is auto-immune. What he can't tell is if it is post-partum or life-long. He is leaning toward not because of my history. In either case, I have started medicine for this. I have hope that I won't be so tired all of the time soon. He said I should be starting to feel a difference in 1-2 weeks. I will have more blood work in June and return to see him in August.

That is it from this neck of the woods...

20 April 2010


My daughter pulled herself up to standing in her crib. I watched her do it...She can't crawl, but she can stand...it's all over!

19 April 2010


On Saturday, Andy and I attended the funeral for dear little Ava. For such a horribly sad occasion, it was such a beautiful testimony to so many things-a beautiful little girl taken home to Jesus too soon, our Catholic faith, as well as the blessing of big families.

I love the parish we are at. We were blessed to get Fr. Dan last summer as our new pastor. He is such a wonderful priest! He handled the funeral beautifully. I know he spent a lot of time with the family over the past few days. He was so inspiring. In his homily, he spoke directly to the children. He told them that we will never know in this life why this happened. We are a blessed parish to have him leading us.

Looking at the family on Saturday, I was reminded of my family. I was reminded of what a blessing big families are. When things happen (both good and bad), it is so wonderful to have so many to lean on. You could see and feel the love in this family, supporting and holding each other up. It reminded me of when my parents' died. I don't know how I would have made it through without them.

As you make you way through the day today, please remember the family in your prayers. There will be difficult days ahead as they return to living, and they need our prayers to help them.

15 April 2010


Yesterday, my friend's niece was struck and killed while out for a walk with her mom, little brother and another aunt. The little girl was only 5. My heart is grieving for this family. It was a tragic accident. Her funeral Mass is on Saturday at my parish. Please keep this entire family in your prayers.

13 April 2010

7 months old!

I love to roll over things!

Miss Jamie-I still LOVE my feet!

I sit up and play because I am a big girl!

My first trip to the water park!

12 April 2010


So, I had my annual physical last Friday. Andy and I schedule them back to back so that we can swap the kids. It works out really well. We do the same with dental appointments as well. I am glad that I went, but I had much trepidation going in. I don't do the doctor well. I have a great internist who I completely trust, but due to a pediatrician that I had as a child who would tease the 3 of us who struggled with weight, I have a hard time going.

I was checked out, and all is well. I was nervous about my blood work coming back. We have a wonderful online system, and by the afternoon, Andy's was back, and mine was not. All weekend, I had images of the doctor not releasing them because something was really wrong. "Jesus, I trust in You" became my mantra this weekend.

Blood work was released today. Everything was stellar except for one area-my thyroid. I asked my doctor to include the test on a whim. My Mom began having issues in her early 40's and well, 40 is just a few months away. I am glad I asked. Same issue-hypothyroidism. It is a relief to know because it explains a lot-why I have such a hard time losing weight (it's taken me 2 months to lose about 5 pounds), I am cold all the time, and of course, fatigue (who knew it wasn't just the kids!). I have to go back in, but I am so glad everything is well and manageable!

07 April 2010

Wordless Wednesday

Random musings

Recently, I discovered a comment on a blog that a former friend made that was directed at me. Long and short, she had made a choice that she was sure that a former Catholic friend would condemn her for. To be honest, what she was choosing to do was not a huge deal and not something I would have even said anything to her about. I saw it last week and I have been kind of sitting with it. Not in terms of responding as that friendship is long gone. I have been sitting with it and thinking, "Is that what people think of me?"

As you all know, I take my faith very seriously. I am far from perfect. I sin, and I go to Confession and ask for forgiveness. I try very hard to live by what the Catholic Church teaches and sometimes I mess up, and that is OK. As a child of God, I know I just need ask and I will be forgiven.

But the comment made me think of a couple of things. First of all about choices. We all make them and we all have to suffer the consequences of said choices both good and bad. When it comes to the teachings of the Church, however, I tend to be kind of a legalist (especially on the big things). I know there are many who say they are Catholic, but then pick and choose what they will follow in Church teaching. I often wonder about that. For me, to go against the teachings of the Church is putting my hope of eternal life in jeopardy. An example of this would be the many politicians who say they are Catholic and then vote for pro-abortion legislation. I guess what I am trying to figure out is why. Why risk your chance of Heaven?

Back to my original thought, the comment from the other blog. What does this say about me and how people view me? I don't want to be seen as judgmental or condemning. I just want to see those I love in Heaven for all of eternity.

03 April 2010

He is Risen!

Easter is here! May you and your families have a Blessed Easter for Jesus has risen!
And with this my blogging fast ends!
Looking forward to re-connecting with you all!
Happy Easter!